So it’s been five years.
Honestly? I’m kind of proud. No, I’m really proud.
This time four years ago I’d finally, for the first time, completed an ms that I was pleased enough with to actually try to query. I decided to hold off until the New Year of course, but I was incredibly proud, incredibly excited, and yes just a little nervous. At that time, though I’d read tons of agent blogs and started researching at the Absolute Write Forums, I still didn’t really have a concept of how difficult the process would be. I guess my problem was that I was paying too much attention to those ‘one in a million’ stories – stories where people who’ve never written a word in their lives suddenly dream up a bestseller, write it in a month, sell it in a week and get millions for it. You know them. There are tons more like them.
I knew what the odds were, but I just wanted to believe that I might be one of those ‘special cases’. Of course, I wasn’t. It was a long and hard road to getting an agent, and an even harder, longer road getting a publisher. A few rewrites, tons of rejections, crushing self-doubt…I was so close to quitting. I started wondering about completely changing my style to fit with the current trends; you know, start up a soulless wip and hope I catch the next bandwagon. So the one thing I can say I’m super proud of is that in the five years I’ve been writing and trying to get my name out there, I never did this. Never phoned it in, never stopped believing. I kept going, kept developing my craft until I finally published my first book – and now even more important than the fact that I was able to get published, I’m also proud knowing that I’ve really developed as a writer. Of course, it sucks beyond all recognition that my old publisher, Strange Chemistry, went under. In a way, publishing is more ruthless these days and my book (as well as the books of the other SC authors) suffered the consequences. But I learned from it. Grew from it. I want to continue that growth in 2015.
So let’s raise a glass to those five years and hope 2015 comes with much awesomeness, success, and general bad-assery all around!